it's all art and a little magic in it

2009-03-20T23:04:00.005+08:00

RISE UP

oh yeah oh yeah, it's already end of week 11~!! whoots!! by the end of week 15 i'll be free~!!! just hang on for one month mel, and ye reach salvation^^ ok fine, before that, there's the major hurdles of week 12 and 15 to clear first but anyhow, life's still sweet~ not gonna bore all with what's to come again, if you want a refresher, just refer to previous post, i'm sure i've rambled before-.-

ok on with life^^ yepp, already thinking of what to do after school~ not gonna do summer term man, crazy.. i hao bu rong yi get out of there ask me to go in suffer again whoa lao, pls, just, no. and its ex too!! 900 per mod leh! it's ex one lor siao.. ok, really on with life now.. hmm wad am i gonna do in holx? my daddy asking may wanna go where~!! go kor or taiwan:D it seems like we might go kor again hahax DONGBANGSHINKI~!!!!! no daddy, they're at japan now, we got our destination wrong:( can we go japan? lolx, siao so ex. wt so shiok eh.. she's like in taiwan alr lar now wdh.. slack HAHAX hope she buys smelly tofu fer me^^ *gets stoned*

but dunno can go not leh :S like got the diva thingy AND WANG, HAVE I ALREADY TOLD YOU?! IT'S ON 6TH JUNE WDH. IT WAS 13TH LAR WDH. ANGRY. yeah ok. let you find out yourself by reading this HAHAHAX. when ye know le call me yea? HAHAX *prepares to get stoned* nvm, i give you chance go.. er nvm. LOLX. [ps i deleted stuff ok, ひみつ~]

yeah, and i wanna go learn my 한글 too^^ bwahahax, finally get down to doing it with ricca.. after she got her results and after my exams~!! can't wait, den next time i can write letters to my 동방신기오빠들 BWAHAHAX see i so pro, know a wee bit of basics^^ *smug* ahh.. life is good [until i fall head down thru week12 and ahoy~!]

i wanna live my whimsical desires and let loose the restless spirit in me,
i wanna be addicted to my hopes of a Disneyland fairytale.
i'm in my own world - too lucid to be called a dream, yet slightly surreal to be reality.

-mel

2009-03-01T00:35:00.009+08:00

괜찮아

需要你浑厚的歌声安抚我烦闷的心，在我脆弱的时候。

脑中的呐喊，我渴望你的温柔；我要你能听见。

Because when i'm upset and distressed, your voices will sooth my unsettled soul.
the insistent and repetitive music, haunting, haunting my mind; wrenching
the frustrations from the deep recesses of my jealous heart, make me feel again, i'll pray.
Let my pain be but a bitter pill;

我鼻酸，皱了眉头，
because tomorrow comes

咬着下唇，握紧拳头，
i want to be proud of myself.

-mel

2009-02-18T23:58:00.003+08:00

WASURENAIDE

hehe i din forget this time^^ HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHANGMIN OPPA~ 21 years old today~!! ah, so young minnie~ yeah back in korea i think? have a great bdae:D

ahh, this week was damn tiring man.. had mgmt com presentation on monday, hand in creative thinking journal and visual map on tuesday, today had fa quiz in the morning and hand in as and stats hw in the afternoon. O M G. i'm superman lolx

soo damn tired man, so glad for recess week next week even thought i'm going back for most of the days already-.- stupid rite-.- yeah i know. and cuz this few days been crammin all the stuffs i'm supposed to hand in, dun really have much free time of my own (aka youtube and ff-ing) so mel's deprived and depressed :(

lemme name what's coming up soon yeah? bgs presentation on friday, stats mid terms in week 9, fa mid terms in week 10, as fallacies presentation in week 10, fa presentation in week 12, bgs presentation in week 12, bgs individual assignment in week 12, ct thingy i think in week 12 too.. and 4 final terms in week 15. whoo hoo~ god bless me~

demo hitori janai

at least i relish in that fact.

-melXD

2009-02-07T20:39:00.012+08:00

I CAN'T BE BIASED.

hee, i just realised i can't be biased:D

susu's and jae's bdaes have alr past!! i should've wished em too:D:D

ooh and our fav magnae's one's approachin~!

susu's bdae: 01.01

jae's bdae: 26.01

minnie's bdae: 18.02

and anticipating my emo oppa's [micky!!] bdae [in june too]:D

loves, mel^^

happy birthday oppa~!

2009-02-07T20:25:00.018+08:00

AHH I'M A BAD KID.

how could i break my first new year resolution?! OMG. *cries* i was supposed to post yesterday!!! :'( to break my 1month+ hiatus [i was on a holiday~ in my laptop lolx] and to welcome 2009!! i swore i'd blog ytd, when its YUNHO OPPA'S BDAE!!! AHHHH!!
bad kid:(

gaah, so disappointed. nvm, at least i was reading fanfics all abt him ytd:D gaah! they were in sm town concert in thailand ytd too:'( so near yet so far :'( i want to go watch their concert too!! *cries* come to m'sia for concert oppas!! and if my exams are over i'd definitely go to watch!!!
[actually if it were before my exams i'd go too but my parents prob wun let-.-] nvm, one day in my life i'll go:D

ahh, in no mood to blog about daily life or post inspirational or incoherent posts. it was just meant to be yunnie's 23rd/24th birthday post *upset*

hee, once i'm in homework and 'shit i've gotta get on with life' mode, i'll post again yea? it'd be soon, i promise. oh, btw, my second new year resolution is to learn korean!! so i can go to kor to find oppas!! HAHAHAHAX djok:D ah, it's a dream, why not?

i'm gonna sign off yea? before i go, giftin you lucky ppl one of my fav pics of him:D

yunho oppa, onward 2009, HWAITING!! :D
yunnie's bdae: 06.02

-melXD

2008-11-04T12:49:00.004+08:00

AIYAH

why liddat again.
i very angry leh. becoz everytime i blog it's about unhappy things
and no cannot, life cannot be filled with unhappy things just because it's short and we need to live life and LOVE life.
i dun like to read angry posts or emo posts becoz it affects me and makes me very unhappy:(

why liddat?!

argh. and bad things happen again and again~
like how massa lost the championship
like how i almost failed my biz law mid terms [zZz not like i really care lar but just to put it in this wdh list]
like how i realise, shit, i got a lot of hw i haven done yet due soon
like how i realise i have frens who are suffering out there and i can't do anything about it
like how life's starting to look better for me and i can't be happy becoz they are not
like how i'm starting to ramble and even annoy myself

like how i'd wish she'd be easier on herself becoz life's easy and we're all here to help her, isn't it?

because in this utopia that i'd like to believe in, there's no sadness or loneliness
because i love my friends as much as they love me
because sometimes i love them more than they love me
and it hurts to see them upset.

is it a brodding period? because every one's in this sullen mood and the blogosphere's feelin quite gloomy lately and and..

it's selfish to think alone; think you're alone because you're disregarding our feelings for you.
must our care and concern be made so explicitly clear to be apparent?
because i thot something so intangible should be felt whole-heartedly and accepted whole-heartedly
and because i don't like to wear my emotions on my sleeves and because i'm bad at expressing myself
and now i'm angry.

ARGH. *buey song*

-mel:(

life's easy~

2008-10-20T10:12:00.008+08:00

追不到的梦想换个梦不就得了

无忧无虑，洒脱；
我追随生命中的简单，随性。
你会跟着我吧？

人生不苦也不短，也不算梦。

在梦里，世界和平？
即使梦中，那也不过是美丽的憧憬吧？
我不知道梦是什么；
因为在凌晨两点钟，脑海里浮现出的画面
我看不到。

在嘈杂中，我放空，
想象自己，如果..？

-小山~

dreaming out loud

2008-10-15T01:35:00.004+08:00

D.O.L.

back in school, second day le. hai~

so much work to do i dun even feel like sayin anything here. i mean, who doesn't have work rite? i've got nothing to say actually. about myself at least.

to depressed: it's not worth fretting over, nothing has that sort of value.
but yet i do that too, the conflicting emotions is what keeps you alive ne? who am i to tell you what? what..? i've been living in the same tale, memory.

no, fantasy.
like how i'm trying to lead you, the dance's begun; we're spinning in circles~

and when i'm feeling slight, foolish and insane, i speak as such. should i quote shakespeare?
[wtf, he never quotes any of mine! - it's a fanfic! but the emotions are gorgeous]
and den i learn to pretend.
pretend that maybe i dun want to care, because i'd like to live in my fantasy.

with daisies? perhaps. dandelions and the swirl of sunshine warmth and gentle summer breeze.
[it's myspace isn't it? lolx, nope.]
and we'd be sprawled on our backs on the crisp grass, fresh from the morning spray
not tainted, tainted by the blares of the future, i need to get out.

leave me be, i'm probably not back yet.
and in the heart of the night, where i like it silent and calming,
endless buzz, buzz. i want out.

It seems like yesterday that he was invincible—unbreakable and bulletproof, sitting confidently on top of that precarious ladder of possibility with his feet swinging carelessly over the rest of the world, and it didn’t even matter if it collapsed out from under him because, hell, he could fly.

i'm not suicidal [LOLX], but it's a lovely piece.
maybe my double is?
no, i probably just love the life of drama, and angst and dark musings, and..
i need fluff. badly.

Now, [he] is afraid of falling.

and when he's back, i'll be too.

-mel~

incomprehensible

2008-10-07T00:04:00.006+08:00

INCOMPREHENSIBLE.

hit by buckets of goodness and angst at the same time.
sorry for the incoherence.
the past month's been a whirlwind of happenings and emotions.

'the prevalence of the red army falls to naught'
i've been waiting, praying. anticipation to disappointment? heartwrenching.
be prepared, this' only round one.

...

2. another chapter, another passage of time;
have i evolved? [probably not,] but i don't want to let go,
the distance is unbearable. but i've met a new love~
i don't want to betray.
it's not what it seems [lolx]

it's an addiction; a deadly addiction? no a painful one
but i don't want to let go.
the past'd been lovely, i want another chance at the future
but i havent been living in the present; help me

3. i've been gifted the chance to think.
think, think, reminisce.
move on, i've moved on; but i'm lost
i don't like the stifling new place
i don't like the haunting new faces

hitogomi ni magiretemo onaji sora miteru noni
Although we are mixed up with a mass of people, we are looking on the same sky

dum dum, my love's been a fresh of new air
i need energy and life,
i need to feel alive.

i'm still in my fantasy; who can bring me back?
i'd like to think i'm king, nobody can stop me~

i'm the king of the world, ..
don't let anyone wake me, i'm dreamin out loud

i havent been crying buckets, no sire~
but isn't it nice to pretend?
[not for those reasons anyway]

i'm sorry for these moments
i'm an angsting pot, a stuttering mess of..?
these muses are influences!!
[my love, what are you doing to me?!]

dum dum, i just need my time and places for these

and i'll be back, i promise.

-mel~

ahh SHIT SHIT SHIT

2008-09-07T21:28:00.005+08:00

I'M SO SAD:'(

hi guys.. long time no see man:D this past week was HECTIC, simply put. *flips through notebook*

monday: finished presentation slides, ltb meeting till abt 8 den twc meeting till about 11+ i think.
tuesday: with nerves of steel, finished the presentation! WHOO:D
wednesday: met wang and jane for lunch! we ate at.. some jap restaurant in taka.. den jane went sentosa and i brought wang to smu den i sped off for classes, had ltb meeting after class till 9.30.
thursday: met wt and sam for lunch as aston[?!] at cathay den met my aw prof for evaluation. for 10 mins -.-
friday: ACTUALLY NO SCHOOL ONE LOR. den had twc make-up but before that went for mic session quite fun:D
saturday: went to work at 830 in e morning. woke up at ungodly 715.. I HAVEN'T WOKEN UP BEFORE 10 SINCE SCHOOL STARTED !@#$%^ den met wt and rc at ikea in afternoon. eh, i not lightbulb lor, actually meet at 2 de, but i meet them de time alr 330 like that so i let them lunch themselves ok! and this time is rc lightbulb lor cuz suppose i go with wt only de lor, and maybe with ys, den suddenly got rc!! so not me k, is him:P

hahax, so as you can see, school is quite hectic but quite slack. ...yup you heard that right. slack in the sense that cuz no lecture or practical or wdv, i only have avg 5 lessons a week! and best thing, not much hw!! but the projects are tough lar.. have ltb, a sem-long project which is basically like organising a cip project lar.. den the others are much tougher cuz they are only week-long projects which make it HECTIC LIKE HELL. as you can see from my twc meetings, quite mad lar, alw meet till like past midnite or sthing. was so bad until my dad saed: either you drive to school or from next sem go stay in hostel. O.O i'm disowned!! :'( hahax yup, that's the hectic live i'm living in smu now zZz

i'm really enjoying the ccas though, joined 3 as of yet, hesitating whether to join the 4th!! 我的最爱~! the 4th is jap culture club budden if i join that summore i'll be super busy lar.. alr joining smube, rotaract [which haven started whoohoo~] and mic aka kbox club WHOO HOO HAHAHAX:D

thanx to all my dearest frenx who are all quite 担心 for me cuz i like cannot get use to smu culture. they prob felt i was brooding or to put it harshly, emo-ing. O.O MEL TAN EMOING?! NOOOOO~ hahax aiyah, no need to worry k? if i can tahan sc, i can tahan smu!! HAHAHAX aiyah, i'm like that one lar.. when thrown into a new env, i usually clamp up. if you guys rmb when i first entered nj [first 3 months before wang came] i was also quite loner wad.. hahax must maintain a distance and observe ppl ma! examine wad kind of person is who who who etc.. and i must get really used to and comfortable with the ppl arnd first before i reveal myself.

ahem, i recently v buey song. i got called an AH LIAN in smu by one of my smu twc teammates. WDH?! WHOA LAO UNCLE YOU LOOK MORE LIKE AH BENG LAR !@#%^ HAHAHAX he sae i speak a lot of hokkien so i am ahlian-.- thx ar ah zek-.- U SMOKE SUMMORE LOR. sheesh. aiyah, smu so angmoh must retain our roots a bit ma, camming abit of hokkien makes me feel more 自在 lolx.

hai~ and today? sunday. sunday = ? sunday = raceday. today, 07 sept, kimi overtook kov massa and stupid ham to take race lead. 10 min from end of race? rain. rain = ? rain = shit for kimi. shit for kimi = ? shit for kimi = crash out of race + very upset mel:( !@#$%^!@#$%^!@#$^% :'(:'(:'( WHOA LAO. GOD HATES HIM MAN. HE SUPER SUEY LAR! CRASH LIKE WAD?! 3 RACES IN A ROW LE?! :'( i'm very sad now:'( from now i have a resolution. i actually like to eat ham alot de. from now on ar, i'm gonna HATE HAM. sheesh.

i hate rain too:'(

-mel:'(

in smube camp

2008-08-30T03:44:00.002+08:00

SMUBE CAMP:)

HI GUYS now it's like an ungodly 3.46 am and i'm stuck in smu school of econs!! help!! they are like watching stephen chow's show in canto and I DUN UNDERSTAND CANTO AND DE SUBTITLES SPOILT!!!?! ok nvm

hahax on this camp quite cool cuz like not so many ppl so feel closer to the people and easier to click and guess wad? my group only left 3 freshies!! including me!! and like random seniors are joining us and like the faci freshie ratio is like 1:1 HAHAX ok damn lame-.-

just now played some cool games in marketing and emcee dept.. den we went for shi zi lu kou:D went to eat tau huey, macs, mee pok and snacks like peanut and choc:P zzz v tired now cuz just bathed and watching the show and IT IS DAMN FREAKING HOT HERE WDH TURNED OFF THE AIRCON?! zzz

mm this week has been damn chaotic.. but i think it sort of all boils down to my procrastination *ashamed* cuz like just this weekend alone, i have to complete LTB research, read my biz law text, do my acad writing draft and script AND research for my TWC WHICH I HAVE TO PRESENT NEXT WEEK !@#$%^

whoa damn shit lar.. like everything's damn packed, i'm damn damn stressed like NO TIME NO TIME!! and i'm seriously thinking of going back earlier tomorrow or else i cmi for the twc meeting on sunday man. C. M. I. my group's gonna meet in school from 6pm till we finish dat damn thing lar and they are like gonna stay over in school !@#$%^ shag shag shag.

ha.. other than that, actually getting quite used to the smu-ish feel alr.. like if i dun like it just ignore it and go about my own way hahax.. and i've made some great frenx in twc and acad writing:D yay ok the show just ended and maybe i should sleep now :/

zzz cya guys around~ boo

-melXD

2008-08-24T22:03:00.002+08:00

GAMBATTE

c'mon! i don't want you to lose your spark~ you can be better than that!!

isit a win-lose? i dunno.. maybe it's a lose-lose.. life's cruel like that.

ever hopeful,

-melXD

YIPEE

2008-08-24T16:35:00.003+08:00

HURRAY

I'M DAMN HAPPY CUZ TMR'S GOT NO SCHOOL BWAHAHAX.

at first still v upset cuz today is the last day of olympics got lots of things to watch rite? and got f1 tonite summore BUDDEN monday is biz law.. den had to read chaps 1 and 3 of the book.. zzz

DEN MY BELOVED PROF SAE CLASS POSTPONED WHOO HOO:D

i'm a happy gal:D

-melXD

start of school

2008-08-19T10:00:00.003+08:00

START OF SCHOOL

omg, it's officially the start of school le. no more slacking off for me le. i'm so sad:( ytd was the first day of school, had my first business law module and oh boy, damn sianXx

first day was damn bad man. oh and i hate the internet man. like seriously everything is on the net lar! timetable.. homework assignments etc wdh.. damn irritating lar.. den our profs will post stuffs online and expect us to do it lar.. i mean with time will get used to it and stuffs lar but we are like FRESHIES and dunno this whole system well and stuff gets posted and most of us dunno abt it. like how wt called me ytd morning to tell me hw was one vista lar.. like wdh never even logged on to that thingy before man.. den i went online check and my prof act asked us to read up on chaps 1 and 3 of some book lar.. den i thought was an e-journal or wdv den search and search den realised it was a book-.- so i had to rush down to school lib and try to hunt for that book.. but by the time i went down it was gone lar! damn screwed man.. and worse still, i forgot to bring my hp on the first day of school!! HAHAX blur shit.. dun care lar.. one aft lesson i also no need to call anybody:P

zZz and i haven collected the blasted com lar.. dunno where to collect at all man.. when i was supposed to collect during the holx both my dates available was when i was having bondue and ftb one after the other lar.. super cmi man.. den my mum picked up my call when i was in ftb [left my hp at home too WHOOPS HAHAX] and this guy was yapping my mum din get it, he said i'd know so she thot i'd know but I DUNNO. SOO the case of my missing com~ and ytd i overheard a girl sae she just collected hers so i o ask her she saed must go down to the main branch at BUKIT MERAH to collect X.X I DOU WANT THIS COM LE. I BUY ANOTHER ONEE~ stupid-.-

gaah i realise i quite antisocial sia HAHAX ok lar.. not realise lar.. i know i'm antisocial.. like in my first class act had this guy from my bondue gp de but i din tok to him at all. but during the camp i din even tok to him once i think so i dun care lor HAHAX aiyah.. AIYAH dun care lar x.x den not bad leh.. in my class have ppl from sc!! from 4se de kahleng and michelle! and i also know this guy who is wt's ftb fren.. but he din recongize me lar -.-ll tell wt den you know ll-.- hahax.. overall first day of class is totally meant for stoning lar pls.. den he ask those freakin chim qn: what is right and wrong? STUN. i mean hello isn't this biz law not KI?! zzz seriously i just stoned thruout the session cuz like most qns were super abstract and hence i forsee my class participation to be zero~ OH NO! zzz.. aiyah gimme time to warm up to the class be comfortable den i will zi ran er ran talk ok? i need to convince myself wad i'm saying makes sense before i convince others rite? right:D

ahh i'm having political philosophy later wif wt and academic writing [!@#$%^] till like 7 wdh.. zZzs man.. i'm looking forward to the pp tho like v interesting liddat hahax.. aw is like gp all over again lar sianx..

hai, sky is dark and gloomy mirroring my feelings exactly.. it's just time to jump back into bed and sleep man.. hahax i sound like i'm suffering rite? AHHH school sux:( i like my bed better:(

-melXD

korea

2008-08-12T14:11:00.005+08:00

JUST A TEASER: KOREA

-melXD

re: bondue

2008-08-11T22:47:00.002+08:00

RE: BONDUE

hey guys! i'm back in one piece from da camp!!:D ok lar, it ended on friday actually but i tuo tuo tuo until now den come and update:D today is.. monday nite le!! zZz wed got ftb [freshmen team bonding? ..wdv-.-] all da way till this friday again *moans* i'm gonna miss my bolster like hell man!!

alritey, on to the actual camp then.

..

... ..ok, i'm super speechless. i dunno how to describe it lar, its not that i dun like it, but its not that i like it super much either.. I MEAN, my group was fine, seriously [gp15:D] but i suppose everything was sortof a culture shock to me lar.. *reflects back on school life* whoa i from pri school to uni all the way culture shock all the way man.. chi to eng to chi to eng again.. this time the culture shock was seriously the worse lar zZz i suppose cuz most of them were from like.. acjc i think.. or at least i heard.

if you look at all three days though, you'd probably think my team was not bad.. as in they all quite pia for the games, quite enthu, quite rahh rahh kind, the kind that will get you rahh and super into the mood as well lar.. the first day station games were damn dirty but fun nonetheless.. and the way my team worked hard and played hard, out of 10 games we only lost 1!! not bad rite??:D so proud of ourselves too:D and den second day sian sian abit, was amazing race in sentosa we SUPER SLACK lar, out of 10 games never even finished all! only finished 7, felt damn shagged and went back to school HAHAX i think we are like the only team to not finish man HAHAHAX damn farnie lar:D

sounds fun rite? i mean, yeah lar, it was fun as in the games were fun, the team was good lar.. but individually i never really got to know my whole team.. i mean, i dun even know all the names of the ppl in my gp-.- i rawk rite? thankiew. aiyah, i bad at names 就算了, they never really formally introduced themselves either i think? like first day we only played a name game with the other team we were bunking in and that's it. and i'm not the kind that will v fast v buddy with ppl de summore, i 慢热派, takes time to warm up to others so i also wun super rahh rahh super on super enthu until everybody will tok to me or wad lar yanoe, i mean i admit i probably am rather loner lar but zZz.. c'mon i could nv really 溶入their conversations. like seriously, dunno is 代沟or wad leh, i just.. dun.. i dunno, click with them-.-

!@#$%^

hai~ ya noe like 7 gals 5 guys on the team, i'm alw de gal that will be walking alone lar.. den our seats in the room, i'm the only gal that sit with the guys lar.. and stuff liddat lar.. but seriously speaking i can tok to some of the guys better than most of the gals lar.. zZz i dunno lar.. the stuff they talk abt is seriously zZz lar.. i mean i understand that alot of ppl are v interested in that sortof stuff lar but sry i'm not lor.. they'll play like 'traffic light', ask you wad status [as in relationship: attached, complicated or available-.-] den they'll go into details [like SUPER SUPER DETAILED DETAILS] on your relationship(s) lar.. i mean.. woohoo i'm so interested zZz altho i admit its quite farnie to see some of them quite awkward lar hahax.. but i mean, not nice to probe rite.. not like i v 熟 with you summore ask wad ask lar.. so farnie lar.. zZz.. no offence lar those of you who are interested i mean, human rights lar huh, so i have my rite to express my, i dunno, unease??

yeah, so as a team, they're great ppl, on and enthu and just the way i like it. but as individuals, like when we have free time sit down and talk, that's when i feel the gap, yanoe.. like seriously, almost all of them are super interested lar.. like O.O ok.. then i'll just shuddup and listen lar lolx. oh, and the second night was chill out night.. the seniors brought LOTS OF LIQUOR and they actually turned some seminar rooms into like clubs lar.. like seriously off the lights, blasted club music and stuff. heyhey, guess wad! i act learnt that there is: mambo and trance! mambo's quite lame lar, like ppl just dancing to the lyrics of the song.. 's quite farnie actually, see all the ppl doing the same stuff.. djok sia HAHAX reminds me of mass dance man HAHAHAX and trance is.. i dunno, i suppose just dancing wildly to the music.. a teammate was like complaining that why keep playing mambo music and not trance.. that's when i realised there was a DIFFERENCE! HAHAHAX NOOBXX~

so on that nite at first we had drinking games lar.. we played 'never ever' with irish cream i think.. dunno wad lar.. smells abit like ice cream soda actually hahax.. din really drink.. den some of them ask the question is like seriously win alr lor.. like super R rated questions lar.. like wdh.. privacy??! i guess they dun really respect that lolx.. i mean its quite cool to see them so open and very 爽快 with it all lar but i mean i'd appreciate a certain degree of modesty lar.. like you dun really tok abt these kinda things in the open rite? i mean altho they say 'everything said here is private and confidential' but i mean hello, how private and confidential can a seminar room be rite wdh.. seriously seriously culture shock man. until the point i'm kinda regretting coming here already.

wOw, school hasn't started and i'm alr regretting. way to go~ after like a few rounds of the game, they decided to go to other rooms instead, then they stumbled upon this room with a senior playing serious drinking games.. as in 猜拳 kind lar, and drinking shots kind.. then almost all of them played lar.. and by the looks of it, all of them lost to the guy.. i was like quietly standing at the back just watching dem lar.. den you alr start to see some seniors getting super drunk and wasted till cmi alr lar.. wdh. i mean, senior, looks quite bad rite..

and welcome to the worst part. they went into a clubbing room lar. like a few of them dun club and they went out alr to play cards.. but like i not v close to them and stuff and they nv asked me so i din follow them lar.. i din even realised they left man lolx.. i was with the clubbing ppl hahax.. den a few of them climbed onto the table and started dancing lar.. den super 尴尬 lar, i seriously just STOOD at the back and just like, tapped my feet to the music, a super lame attempt at trying to fit in man hahax.. cmi lar.. i swear, i STOOD dere for an hr plus lor zZz dey all dance until quite high i just, well, kept my distance lar.. i mean, i dunno.. uncomfortable ma so just keep away lor hahax.. den i stood at the back and observed lar.. den i see like ppl totally totally wasted on the dance floor, i see ppl falling from the table to the floor, i see ppl hitting their head on the projector on the table [LOLX DAMN DJOK], i see ppl making out like SERIOUSLY [no shame man..], heard ppl chanting 'fight! fight!' hahax.. damn farnie lar just like tv drama lor, all a big djok..

i'm proud of myself for staying in there man.. hahax when in there i had super mixed feelings lar.. on the one hand i just wanna get out of the place lar.. like i seriously dun belong there man, poker cards, come to me~ but i thought it was like rude of me to like just walk out on the rest of them lar.. i tot there was, i dunno, some sort of code of honour like sticking to your group when you club or sthing but apparently not lar-.- was cheated man hahax.. shd have just left rite:P but aiyah leave i also alone also v farnie.. i also dou want to go find wt lar.. like so weird, ppl have their own team bonding activities and stuff if i keep going down den like v weird lor zZz.. and anyways heard she puked lar.. like wdh.. so ashamed of her man! how can puke?! HOW CAN YOU?!?! hai~ *shakes head* disappointed man.

aiyah, tell you two days enough to depict the horrific scenes rite? no need to go on to the last day hor.. act also nothing much lar last day hahax.. just some sports games etc only lar..

so i dunno man.. like initially i was eagerly anticipating the start of school, like i wanna know how the school is like, how the people are like, like wad on EARTH are you studying when you're in business and stuff.. i mean, c'mon it's university it's like a huge step in life lar! and it's like apparently the most happening time of your life etc etc.. i just din really get that 'happening' = clubbing life. i mean c'mon man, there's more to life than that rite? i mean, there's anime and kbox and and..

i dunno, the camp was like a rude wake up call lar.. like hey, uni's not gonna be a smooth ride in the park man.. like i seriously need to get used to the culture and all that shid lar.. but, i dunno, i suppose there's alw good and bad to sthing rite.. so i hope that sthing good will appear soon to convince me that i've seriously made the right choice to come to smu ba..

on to ftb~ heard it's more serious type! sounds great hahax.. see ya guys soon yea? take care:D oh, and wish me luck:P

-melXD

on to bondue

2008-08-05T22:17:00.003+08:00

BONDUE

*froths at mouth* yes you got it.. i'm actually going to a camp @.@ yepp yepp, tmr is the start of bondue camp run 2! so i'll be away for 3 days 2 nites guys! from 6-8th of aug! heard it's quite a dirty camp [oh no] so i'm quite dreading it-.- hahax.. aiyah, i am wet blankie 派 HAHAX and de pessimistic 派 OH NO i'm gonna get scolded if de facis find out-.- *moans* life sux:(

gaah, so this is a 道别信, in case i dun survive these 3 days, well, at least you've last heard from me yea? hahax yuppx..

so i'm in gp.. shit i forgot *checks email* oh, gp 15 section 3 green gp.. and one of the pack list states: bring at least a shirt of your gp colour *froths at mouth.. again* WHO THE HELL HAS A GREEN SHIRT?! gaah, aiyah sry lar, 本小姐不喜欢青色-.- and i had to specially go out to get a green t. wdh. and its ugly green. ..cuz all da greens are ugly BWAHAHAX

..ok, so today just went to school for a biz school talk lar, then after that went to ps wif wt and her fren.. L.. leroy i think o.O whOOps HAHAX ate the half price waffle [TUESDAY WHOOPIE~!] den suddenly wang called asked us go jurong for dinner.. at like 5+.. ask ck send us there.. but cmi lar.. tmr got camp haven packed stuff yet so dou want to go so far.. summore ck only get car at like.. 7?! cmi lar.. next week yea:D after our bondue camp! whoa ck become our chauffeur le BWAHAHAX aiyah, pass le must de ok:D i not counted lar:D

ahh, 1030 le, i want to go read my ff and watch my souleater le.. i tot i better 敬责 and publish one more post before i disappear:D hahax okok, will come back next time with details on my camp and maybe the korea trip!! er but i sorta left my schedule book at wang's hostel that day so.. i lost like wad i did on which day and stuffs.. so zZz wait longer BWAHAX:D

hahax, so cya guys arnd! enjoy school camps and army camps!! :D

-melXD

back, alive and kickin'

2008-08-04T14:09:00.007+08:00

SORRY LAR

So long never update le BWAHAHAX. aiyah, just came back from kahmsahamida land on thursday nite lar, had a blast there man altho it was like scorching hot !@#$%^ today too lazy to update abt the trip lar, anyways i'm not at home~ i'm at wang's hostel!

all the way at the far west of singapore hall 13 room er i forgot. aiyah not impt, impt thing is, i left house at 1130 to jp wif my sis, reached her canteen at abt 1 i think, ate lunch, came up to her room and guess wad, she's SLEEPING! awesome HAHAX her room oven lar.. ..ok lar not so bad. later i got some shid pre-camp dinner or sthing lar.. i dun really mind lar but wdh, wad a bad time lar, todae got new show to watch leh!! got the fann wong go mad show and so you think you can dance!!! ARGHHH i want to watch!!! ARGHHH i'm a tv addict ya noe-.- i dou want to go le:'(

gaah, anyways, something very exciting happened on sat.. guess wad? CHEEKIAN DROVE ME AND WANG OUT!! WHOO HOO!! HAHAHAX cool shit right.. i just came back from korea den wang told me den den was like: whoa lao, pass le never fetch us outtt.. den we super impromptu had a supper at railway mall lar.. at first wanted to find wt too but she was shag so she stayed at home.. den later act queen can de den guess wad.. when ck called me again he was like: er queen parents dun let her go and i started LAUGHING LIKE MAD! HAHAHAHX DJOK SIA HAHAHAX aiyah.. trust him abi lar horr HAHAX damn farnie lar.. so in de end, he came to my house fetch me first den went to beauty world fetch wang and went to coffee bean at railway mall.. cool shit lar.. he drive like quite pro liddat hahahax ONE HAND LEH cool shit altho was clutching the door quite tightly HAHAX NO LAR HAHAHAX aiyah, quite cool lar.. his parents actually let him drive out on his own leh.. pass one week only.. dunno he go home by PIE or by bukit timah road.. whoa if by expressway alone at nite.. 佩服 sia

den after that wang came to my house and sleep.. cuz she scared home alone HAHAX den next morn i went to work and she went to teach tuition.. so eventful hor.. yeah lor i also think so:D aiyah sry lar guys, too lazy to update korea de.. next post k? hahax got some stylo mylo pix man HAHAX

ahh.. they all start school le zZz and i still waiting for my orientation camps to start.. i want to go back to njc:( i miss njc:( *looks at s13 pic wang stuck on her wall* :(

-melXD

i'll be gone gone going~

2008-07-23T16:56:00.003+08:00

GONE IN 1

Figured i should probably update my blog before i fly off:D after kena nagged at again HAHAX:D yeppx, i'll be gone in one day!! *whoots* off to kamsahamida-land! ..korea:D fer 8 days i think.. my daddy finally found the time and this year he die die also want to go so we goin korea! wanted taiwan tho but got no tour-.- yeah flight's like tmr nite 11 i think o.O not too sure O.o eeyer, nan de wang not going to taiwan wif her mummy de den i also going overseas zZz 无缘的人啊 haven called her for a while le *guilty* hahax.. maybe she's shed her skin and grew new one le like a snake LOLX okok, later at nite den i call~ but jialat lar.. at nite ar, i've got TONNES of stuff to watch-.- ahh, later den see how HAHAX:D

hmm i haven't updated for.. i dunno, got 1 week plus ba? jia lat lar.. i also can't really remembered what happened. oh yeah, sc chalet, sent debx off and went out wif wt and thats it. yeah chalet was not bad lar.. cycled, bbqed, walked damn alot-.- HAHAX the feeling's slightly different from nj chalet.. i dunno, maybe cuz all girls? den the stuffs we talked about's so diff from what we chat at night for our nj chalet.. as usual sandra is the one rattling away.. it never fails to amaze me, she's got SO MUCH to say!! and dat's a good thing lar HAHAX too bad wang was sleeping when she came over or they can compete or sthin gHAHAX.. personally i think sandra might still win sia O.O SHOCK. absolutely.

it was quite farnie the first day, the ah bengs as our noisy neighbours, the rounds with the cockroaches etc etc. i tell this story a lot of time le super lazy to retype sia.. jia lat, i realize i cannot recount past events cuz i tell alot of ppl alr and i v lazy zZz oh yeah, i want to complain, omg, they were like telling those riddles thingy at nite lar.. budden hor, the stories are all damn sick lar wdh, wad ppl eat each other lar, jumping off a hot air balloon etc.. wdh, stories all came from the rj ppl.. rj ppl are screwed man HAHAX dun tok bout this kind of thing at nite lar wdh.. listen until i v buey song cuz i dun like to hear this kind of thing AT NITE wdh. can't we just sit arnd tok cok as in seriously cok or play cards? i think we nj de too hooked on cards le man, can just sit there play bridge or daidi for hours and hours. abit no life hor HAHAX no lor super fun pls:D so i BESEECH you guys *nudges sandra* STOP YOUR SPOOKY STORIES-.-

and de second day wang arrived in the.. shit i cannot rmb.. afternoon i think o.O she went bowling with the other girls i was sitting arnd lazin and stuff.. lazy to play:P yeah den later ck came to pick us up to changi send debx. omg, so many ppl lar pls.. we s13 de got abt 10 i think? and the rest are SWAMPS of rv de wdh.. ppl hazard lar seriously. debx like big star sia, so busy run here run there lolx..

quite sad lar.. see debx leaving.. but she's going to her brighter future abroad and will be back soon!! and at least aus is relatively near compared to like england-.- so we can hop over if we suddenly struck lottery LOLX. wish ya ALL DA BEST PAL~

yeppx that day me and wang went back de time alr abt 9 plus i think? and guess wad, the rest of the girls want to go carls jnr-.- wdh. it's at big splash NO SHIT area B NO SHIT and we are like abt area D or E NO SHIT omg.. damn long lar wdh.. one hour walk pls!! zzZ shd have just stayed in to play cards ma zZz.. walk until leg break sia.. but i think we damn bad lar.. keep complaining and complaining.. i think sandra and karen ear wanna drop le HAHAX paiseh lar.. ppl abit buey song ma.. nv bath, send good fren off, walk in the dark, walk so FAR of cors buey song lar hahax.. but nvm, betta not face black or else so bad hor:P ok lar, go there eat some dunno wad fries thingy den walked all the way out cross underpass to other side just to flag a cab-.- you're not gonna ask me walk back man, i'll yell bloody murder.

so that was 18th to 20th july de.. oh yeah, 20th was my daddy bdae so we went to clementi woods de sakura go eat.. food not bad lar but so many ppl so squeezy and annoyin sia-.- that day abit bad mood lar, so long nv drive den nv sleep properly den my daddy ask me to drive.. like shit lar pls.. his bdae i also cannot sae dou want HAHAX yeah lor, i swear i almost crashed the car like twice man-.- and my daddy got a new phone! nokia de.. was playing wif it, not bad got like gprs and cam is like 5.0 sumore leh.. sharp sia~

den ytd went back to school for some lib talk thingy den went out wif wt go shopping! we bout a pair of shoes each hahax.. wanted kbox de but in the end a few of us only den super sian diao so dou want lo~ last nite before we sleep, me and my sis packed our luggage to korea.. abt 45 min i think den hurry slept till today 1pm HAHAX pig

thot i'd blog at least once before i fly off tmr or i'll be charged with neglect of blog property HAHAX. aih, super lazy lar cannot mehhhhh

i dunno, been feelin quite weird lately, maybe cuz it's the uni stuff, frenx are busy with all their camps etc etc, moving in to hostel etc etc while smu-ers are still slacking abt.. camp hasn't started ma.. den havent been toking to wang much cuz she's super busy with her camps etc and lost her voice surprise surprise~ [HAHAX] den my mummy alw suan me: next time you and yuehhsin no more le~ den i'll glare at her and sae: no lor but inwardly think: bloody hell eat shid lar-.- WHOOPS HAHAX. she's kidding lar but wdh, cannot say this kind of thing lor-.-

aiyah who ask her sae me.. like how she alw suan my kimi.. like his last race only 6th den my mummy will alw laugh very loud and sae: your kimi no more le.. wadder, den i'll sae: wdv lor, one race only and inwardly curse like hell again: !@#$%^ HAHAX aiyah, where got whole day happy family rite, impossible rite? and i've alw been very vulgar.. dunno kena scolded how many times for cursing le WHOOPS~ i'm tryin to be sorry.. to no avail-.-

ah, got my emotional rants all out, i can safely sign out of this post! yay see ya guys next time:D

-melXD

fired:(

2008-07-14T11:02:00.002+08:00

BBQ DA BOMB

yes that's right! we, the ppl of 06s13 FINALLY got it right:D yes no shit, i'm talking about the bbq at the chalet!! eh congrats us abit leh,it's like our 死穴 man wdh.. and we finally conquered it:D

still remember our first chalet in j1, we tried to bbq and flopped like cwap. as in, the charcoal din glow, so da chicken couldn't cook and in the end we had to throw all the raw chicken away! omg so waste money-.- and not forgetting to mention, we din have anything to marinate the chicken with so in the end they went to get a little bit of gio ceng [light soya sauce lolx] from the aunty o.O this time we smart le, bought teriyaki sauce for marinating the chicken. omg, that's how chicken should taste like man~ so we've got a whole feast of chicken thigh, wing, sausages, potatoes, fish and chicken nuggets, fish and sotong balls and mashmellow!! WHOA so nice rite!!! *Drools like mad* yeah and guess wad, this chalet had like 10 girls (or 11?! sry lazy to count hahax) and 3 boys and obviously we had TONNES of leftover food.

hahax den damn farnie lar, we saw a huge gp of youngsters on the other side of the resort so we were like: eh just give them eat lar, 反正if we dun eat den throw away very wasted wad rite? den one classmate was like: dun give we pay money de. ..-.-ok lor, den we saved a bit before giving. SO CUTE LEH they actually accepted!!! HAHAHAX:D yep and den suddenly the birthday boy from the other side came over and gave us a piece of cake! eh, ex de lor, is ICE CREAM CAKE leh wdh.. and we sang him a birthday song!! : .. happy birthday to.. -.-ll YOU~! HAHAHAX dunno wad's the boy's name HAHAX i think its andrew or sthing? yeah lar, yuppx just reporting a very ahem, improbable but cute erm acquintance? its nice to know that in this world there still exist this kind of trust btwn ppl:D i mean if it was me i'd be like: err i dou want? yepp so i felt quite touched when they actually accepted it:D

the next day when we left, actually we planned for a class lunch/dinner = lunner/dunch-.- supposed to meet at like 2, but from the 13 ppl who turned up for the first day, only 4 will be staying for it which was like !!!? and we were supposed to find stuff to do btwn 11 to 2 before they arrived lar.. de 4 of us were super shagged pls, tired like SHIT so we last minute decide to cancel and just go home lar zZz.. sry to the ppl who were eagerly anticipating the meeting, we were gonna meet the long-time-no-see mr wilson wee too! so upsetting dat din get to see him again:( aiyah, will have another chance de *ahem* top secret:D cannot reveal here BWAHAX

-end of report for 06s13- movin on..

actually before we met for the chalet on friday afternoon, i had a team-bonding camp for a CIP event in SMU [gasp! newest member on the blog:D] felt quite apprehensive in the beginning cuz was like: ee SMU, so different culture from NJ.. 难免会感到几分不安吧？yeah but after going for the camp, met quite a few others who were like me too, unsure but hopeful. and we had a damn blast together:D some of the seniors were expectantly, well, siao but it's alrite:D it felt like sc only with guys this time o.O

basically we have to complete like compulsory 80hrs of CIP den we can graduate lar.. so this is like a cip to raise funds for some children, and the main draw was the sandcastle building activities. budden, i had TONNES of activities for the weekends that are all pre-planned [last week: nj chalet, coming week: sc chalet o.O] and i can't make it for all of the training sessions which are held on weekends only-.- and the main event on the 26th i also cannot go cuz i'll be in KAMSAHAMIDA-land LOLX. so i was fired by the hr in charge:( and i've only met my gp once:( feels like i cheat their feelings sia, so sry man:( nvm lar, in school, 我们有缘再相见! altho unlike wt whose maj of her teammates are in biz, mine are a good mix of econs, IS etc

wang in her camp now, for FIVE days, wt this week shd be doing all her sales stuffs.. hai, so lost, nothing to do.. time to call up yc le:D for some serious plotting activies, now dat i'm free of my CIP sales duties BWAHAHAX:D

okok, sign off here le~ hope ya'll have a nice week ahead! away with you, monday blues~

melXD

happy bdae to mel

2008-07-10T20:51:00.002+08:00

SHUANG

whoa, 跟朋友们一起庆祝生日，是爽的罗! hahax, yepp, finally blogging after a million years yea? aiyah, lemme enjoy civilian life too lar, dun be so harsh on me! see! i not working also not whole day hogging the com, such a healthy kid:D thus i havent been online for.. er more than a week?? HAHAX paiseh lar, ppl busy cannot mehh tv rox man, going out rox man, sleeping till afternoon rox too. life as a pig rawXx HAHAX:D

ok, lemme recount wad happened k, OOH i remembered a historic event happening last weekend. NADAL. KING OF CLAY. AND GRASS:D HAHAHAX. finaly the fedex is dethroned:D about time yea? he's been winning too much man~ and not that he went down in a whimper without a fight so i dun think fed fans need to be too upset. i mean you dun expect him to reign forEVER rite?! at least he wasn't wipped out in three sets which i expected. din manage to catch it live tho cuz it kept raining which was annoyinggg. yeah so that was one good thing that happened in sports recently:D

hmm, oh yeah and basically went out a lot lar HAHAHAX sometimes just went out for a meal somedays went shopping etc etc. ok, that's all. andd just went for matriculation this tues!! whoa all the smu ppl all dress until super proper sia! weiting saes she felt out of place i tell her i felt that they were overdressed HAHAX. school only aiyoh, dress like going function or wad sia HAHAHAX. aiyah nj is liddat one lar cannot mehhh.

ahh school is going to start still got a kinda 七上八下feeling. dunno feel excited or scared or wad. maybe i just miss school. as in sc, nj, and not really smu. WHOOPS. hahax sry lar, haven 适应how you expect me to like?! i'm not a chameleon, i take time to adapt de:P not looking forward to campus life per se but more to the classroom life yanoe? dunno just miss the class community feeling *Sigh* and todae we just went back to nj to collect our official a level cert and we saw ms chng mr tsang and mrs kong. ms chng and mr tsang just tok abit only lar, abit farnie cuz like not v close to them so also nv talk much. mrs kong still de same hahax. farnie de lor, den we just updated her on our current statuses and invited her to our class chalet which is like, tmr. o.O HAHAX. cool shit chalet again whoo hoo~! yeah s13 rox

ah! must dedicate one part of this post to the happenings of ytd since wang put so much effort into it. i'm so touched it worked out o.O HAHAHAX NO LAR JKJK of cors work out lar, she saigang warrior since forever sure know the stuffs damn well le HAHAHAX.

damn rite, ytd was me birddae:D whoo hoo~ mm, 没什么感触, just well, another year older lor i suppose. this year's really special:D cuz i dun really give much thot into my own birthday, most of the years wil be just a gathering with a few close frenx, namely jane and wang. ok all our bdaes most of the time only three of us and maybe a few extras here and there occasionally lar~ hahax very happy yanoe, i saw like almost half my class on my bdae!! touched to tears man *sniffles*

ok, basically late morn till aft had lunch with jane and wang at some sun place at chjimes:D they qia me to lunch WAHAHAX and jane attempted at chinese poetry in her card which was HILARIOUS HAHAHAX. the ambience was greato and the food not too bad too:D only wang's curry was abit weird. i swear it's sour. and since it was my birddae ya'll have tuh agree. and anyways jane said it was sour too. wang tastebutt spoil:P

den we hoped over to chinatown, ok i knew we were going kbox alr cuz jane was like: let the truth come to light! hahax not she dou want to come lar cuz i know she dun kbox de. so i was buggin wang all de way: siang dey all? net they all?? wt?? den she was like stop asking-.- HAHAX whoops. den in de end got hweeshan van queen debx wt rc and of cors wang:D haha kbox rawkx man! this one at chinatown's awesome!! the rooms is big and song selection is quite HUGE and got sharksfin!! HAHAHAX!!! so farnie! and most imptly: cheap HAHAX. yeps so next time shall go there instead of kbox man!

after kbox, we went to centra which is at clark quay. wang is saeing its like at 8 eu tong sen rd and dey were like: thats chinatown! and basically we dunno is walk left or right so we took one stop to central and went to waraku! and *drumrolls* shulin xy shuen and yf were there too!! AWW how nice of them *tosses them sweets* so we took a really long time ordering our food and
finally we finished eating. den suddenly three of them go toilet and took quite long. so i sorta knew it was a cake lar i think. i mean, if i plan de dere will be a cake too rite? HAHAX yepp, and de farnie ting was, a waiter suddenly came up to us and asked: er the cake, how many candles do you need? O.OSTUNO.O HAHAHAHAX dey all were like stun man HAHAHAX den i saed: 19. HAHAHAX damn farnie lar:D and da cake was nice! of cors lar, aw yun shuen leh! tai tai in da making leh! HAHAHAX

yepp was a very memorable day:D very grateful to have such awesome frenx!! hahax, so sad taht we'll be splitting ways real soon lar, so must treasure every opportunity that i get to see them, like ytd and tmr!

process process, we're all progressing with life now. i'm not yet to the next stage and alr missing the previous. gawd save me~

-melXD

home at last

2008-06-29T20:51:00.002+08:00

YES

Home at last. so blessed, staring at the internet thru the screen of MY laptop:D 有种说不出的幸福哦～ hahax ok i'm nuts. eh, that's the life of a no-lifer office worker man, been there done that, dun wanna go back o.O HAHAX RHYMES! *whoots!!*

havent been updating wad happened on fri nite sat and sun so i'll take a deep breath and finish it in one shot. mel's feeling like a lazy ass now cuz the lightning gods are flashing and thunder is boomin outside [note: 9pm] and i have a personal mantra that states: once it rains at nite, sleep. there, so i might just hop into bed anytime soon for my Zzzs. anyhow, i'll try my very bestest to compress all my rambles into a tiny digestable post yea? how sweet of me *pats head* HAHAX. ok, i'm just lazy cannot ar o.O

friday nite went to kbox wif wt ck and ade. queen still no voice and wang decided to 敬责and preserve her voice for her performance [sc choir] on sat so only we four lor. mm, with ade now we sing more different songs. now have more ahmei songs and more eng songs. ade voice is the power-pai one so she like the ahmei kind. she summore got test song de sia stylo mylo~ this time our kbox nv stay till v late lar, just until abt 12 den go home cuz next dae me and wt got work so we wanted to go home, ade also went home and ck walked to his ahma's house o.O at 12am o.O hope he's ok o.O HAHAX. drove home via pie, was like flying man HAHAX. ok no lar, but xpressway also cannot too slow after ppl flash and horn you sia, finger them back man HAHAHAX. whoops, cannot so vulgar HAHAHAX.

ooh ooh! talking bout finger, it's damn farnie. cuz me and my sis will alw speak in our like own lang so to speak, we dun explicitely sae the F word cuz its heavily censored so we sae 'finger' instead. like if some ass driver suddenly cuts in we'll go: finger that blardi idiot. ok, blardi and idiot not censored de, so can use. den one day i was driving along orchard den some idiot first lane de was like swerving into my lane and i narrowly avoided that ass and i was staring and swearing at him: whoa lao! finger you den you know sia~! *buey song* den my daddy 竟然 said: dun finger ppl, if its liddat you'll kena fingered alot of times le. O.O WDH!!! HAHAHAHAHAX! dunno want to stun at my daddy know that we finger means *ahem* or that my daddy so hip HAHAHAX!! den i was like: no lor daddy, by the time i dare to drive first lane means i v steady le, wun ppl finger me one lorr LOLX ok, THAT was funny man:D

shit i went out of point -.-

ok, so sat was just the baking thing lar, my work.. den after that went to my cuz [mr aus] house he's back!! hahax, never change much lar, still same lor~ den they were playing mahjong while me and my england cousin was helping my uncle to translate jap-eng to proper eng o.O the jap eng damn farnie lar, that jap fella was typing a complain letter to the american company where he purchased his thing lar, den he damn luo suo wdh, den he add in a lot of damn shid farnie stuff like : 'a bad name goes a long way' or some lame thing along that line lar.. like saying how the angmoh company should take up responsibilty etc etc lar O.O me and my cuz see alr is totally O.O man. stun. cmi sia x.x laugh like mad summore HAHAHAX.

sun, i only had work half day den i rushed to shangrila hotel for lunch with my cousins lar.. my aunty gan zhiong lar, cuz my england cuz sat morning flying to hk for her teaching stint there or sthing lar, she damn busy de o.O fly here fly there, she was bugging my uncle to take her to japan lolx. shuang~ yepp, den the three of them, ms england and brother and mr aus rushed off to malacca for holx till tues. so good hor~ hahax, my other cousin suan dem sae: serkali malaysia dun broadcast the euro finals den you know sia HAHAHAX. so bad:P and its my drive like mad cousin again, he drove me and my sis to orchard den dey went home i think. so me and my zeh gia gia tired le go home slack until now~

dum dum,had nothing to do until I suddenly rmbed: shit. wang prez I still haven find. Cuz I was thinking kbox treat lar, but our ms busy v diff to 约 so I better prepare sthing else in case ar, den at least got backup. And den it struck me. So silly, should have thot of it earlier man. I’m an idiot-.- BWAHAHAX. I dun tell you wad, in case she see this post den blow my cover le zZz HAHAX. Ok lar, will still qia you your kbox lar k, dun fret. Anyways it’s a good excuse fer me to go again BWAHAHAX:D

hai, so sad lar. but I also cannot sae why I sad cuz I dun think she want a lot of ppl to know? Gaah, try not to give her pressure lar, anyways it’s the last phase of life cannot anyhow alr, so sui bian like in sec or jc le. 人生大事 man, like marriage LOLX HAHAHAX. Ok, more impt than marriage. Hai, deadline is like.. next wed? dunno lar, feeling so sianx now-.-

-melXD

stuck in my head

2008-06-27T15:15:00.007+08:00

MY HEART DRAWS A DREAM L'Arc~En~Ciel

この胸は夢を描いてくよ　
何処までも高く自由に舞うのさ　
My heart draws a Dream
Oh　降り立つ彼方で目を開けたら・・・
笑顔のままの君に　逢える気がして
逢えると良いな

Kono mune ha yume wo egaiteku yo
dokomademo takaku Jiyuu ni mau no sa
My Heart draws a dream
Oh oritatsu kanata de me wo aketara
Egao no mama no kimi ni aeru ki ga shite
Aeru to ii na

My heart is drawing a dream
flying high above,to freedom
My heart draws a dream
Oh, If I land somewhere far away and open my eyes
I feel like I would see you there, smiling at me
It would be great if I can meet you

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z6_pziKp4ZE

-melXD

abt yesterdays, and today~

2008-06-27T09:47:00.002+08:00

I'M AWAKE, NO SHIT.

lolx, reading my blog, ye constantly bombarded by vulgarities yea? hahax, sry lar i had a disclaimer as my first post!! *points*

i'm unhappy today:( and i'm unhappy that i'm unhappy:(:( [ok, i'm an ass-.-] cuz ytd i was very happy and i wanted today to be happy too but i'm unhappy:( and it's not NOW den unhappy [current time: 9.50am] i was unhappy at 4.30am. that's like, having less than 4 hours of sleep into today and i became unhappy:( i was eagerly anticipating it, i even set my alarm for it!! omg, i'm so sad so sad, so disappointed:(

as i was climbing out of bed, i saw my dad turn off the tv, i guess he was up before me. den it struck me, not over yet wad.. i tot end at abt 5? not sure lar.. so i asked my dad: who winning? he said: spain, 3-0. SIAN DIAO. i went back to sleep an unhappy meow, woke up at 7.15 with a DAMN BAD sorethroat. wdh, and i have kbox later, wdh. today sux. and i so wanted it to be a good day today, cuz my other cousin's coming back(!!:D) and i'm going for kbox later:( i so wanted it to be a good day today. i'm unhappy that i'm unhappy:(

zZz wdv, i guess you can't have it all, at least germany's in da finals~ and da djok is out of wimb~ and nadal won his match ytd!! albeit in 4 sets but THATS NOT THE POINT. he won and da djok lost. BWAHAHAX. ok, i guess soccer doesn't affect me as much as f1 so it's alrite~ KIMI'S GONNA WIN DA BRIT GP!! BWAHAHAX. ok, i'm mad-.- i'm incoherent-.- i 跳tone too fast-.- i'm sorry-.- and i'm trying to mean it:D [idiot *shoots myself*]

ok, back to happy stuff. we dun wanna brood on unhappy stuffs early in da mornin do we? so let's hop to de topic of my cousin. he's coming back!! from aus!! yay, i've got 2 overseas cuz coming back at da same time:D and she's gonna fetch him, i think. it was morning flight i heard, but duno wad time lar. den just now when i just logged on msn and i saw him online! but away, and his nic read sthing like: i'm home. or sthing along those lines. yanoe lar, put away doesn't really mean away rite.. i mean i put busy doesn't mean i'm busy. HAHAX. so i mustered my courage again and toked to him lar like: oh so early back ar? okairinasai. hahax, i'm such a sula, dare not even to speak to my cousin hor HAHAX. aiyah, compare to this one, ytd one i closer ma this one i really not that close. me and my sis calls him ermm statue. HAHAX. whoops, i hope he's not into reading blogs HAHAX. or stimes gargoyle, and we have a laugh over it:D hehx, sry lar, no offence. yep so today i was in a real strange mood so i went to talk to him. but guess wad? he hasn't replied until now so i guess he's an honest chap and is really 'away'. lolx. yeah, score one for brave mel~

last nite was a really happy nite. we went to chomp chomp tgt for dinner! and there were SIX of us in da car!! HAHAX. 4 of us squeezed at da back. and my cuz dan was driving. wdh, he was a mad driver. as in seriously, i almost died TWICE. seriously. sux man he HAHAX. we were like YELLING at him to: WAH LAO EH, RUSH WAD SHIT?! SLOW DOWN LAR!! BREAK SOFTLY LAR!! STOP CUTTING LANES LAR!! I VALUE MY LIFE LEH UNCLEEE!!! ok, basically I was yelling lar the rest were in a chorus of oohs and ahhs. not in a good way-.- hahax, i alw [apparently] 'bully' him cuz i alw make fun of him. but dey dun realise i only make fun of ppl i'm comfortable with and close to:D so ya'll must cherish ok. HAHAX. and somehow or rather, we made our way to chomp chomp safely.

just ate some hokkien mee, chicken wings, oyster omelette, sambal stingray & satay. ooh and sugar cane juice:P oh yeah oh yeah! how did i forgot to mention: my littlest cousin came too!!! HAHAHAX I LIDDAT SAE SOUND LIKE HE VERY YOUNG RITE? HE ONLY ONE YEAR YOUNGER THAN ME LAR HAHAHAX:D he'd probably whack me or sthing HAHAX. it was very unexpected cuz he is having his midyears now!! sstupid ah di, nv study HAHAX. whoops, i psycho him into believing that stats know is know dunno is dunno. o.O HAHAX. no lar, my ah di very smart de, and he claims he study for 5 hours le so want to come out for dinner wif us~ today stats paper hope he does well~ he saes he wants to study chem eng whoAA clever ah di, can one lar:D mm, so after the dinner, we crossed da street to some place eat ice cream, lots of choc flavour de WHEE~ so shuang~

yeah lor, den as dey were eating dey sae wanna pick merv up tmr morning den later wanna have midnite movie de, watch 21. I WANT TO WATCH 21!!! so i sae i go wif dem watch, leave my kbox halfway meet them at amk hub watch. den after that go their house stayover den dey morning send me to mrt station i go to work. sounds good rite? all my problems solved leh. cuz at first i was thinking like it i go kbox how i go home?! last few times most is fren come stayover or at least got ppl sit taxi with me etc now dey all stay in central de-.- win alr lor~ so i tot it was a greato plan. budden hor i went home told my parents dey dou want:( dey sae dey will fetch me after kbox later cuz i think my daddy wants me to drive to work on sat myself:'(

gaah, why de hell did i pass?! now i cannot live my life as a complacent passenger-.- ok i'm sry, it's just i find driving quite stressful lar.. like iknow i not that steady and i very gia si HAHAX. okok, nvm, i alr bought a red car ytd for wt in anticipatation her license *grins and pokes* i so good rite, got you a lucky charm alr:D oh yeah, and my daddy made me drive myself and him to dover this morning, he go singapore poly for a course den i take mrt to work. whoa lao, jam like shit. sianx.

and today's my last day of work. and my colleague got me a prez. my bestest one lar, as in closer than the rest i suppose o.O so sad:( nvm, since i study smu so near i'll alw come back to visit:D anw here got v nice food~

hahax, ok lar i sign off le, maybe later you'll see me again if i'm bored in de afternoon leh? HAHAX. ok, bye~

-melXD

HERO

2008-06-26T15:16:00.003+08:00

HERO

"He didn't impress me with his game today,"
"I could read his serve. I could return. I could stay with him from the baseline, and that's it."

that's it, end of the djok. lolx

-melXD

abt ytd

2008-06-26T09:26:00.003+08:00

zZz

omg, i'm so sleepy today=.= ytd was a rollercoaster of emotions for me o.O morning was fine, afternoon felt a little weary and emo but my nightfall, i'm a happy meow:D it feels awkward to reflect on them in sequence from morning to night since i'm feeling the effect of last night's events right now so i'm not caring, lemme start from da back:P

night: by the time i reached home from dinner wif wt & rc (O.O i crashed their date. again. whoops:D -> will go more into detail later~) it was abt.. 1030 alr i think. i practically FLEW home i swear. why? cuz i wanted to catch the safin and djok match:D hahax during dinner dat ck kept telling me how good safin was etc etc OMG and i missed the match:( apparently the broadcast was not entirely 'live' either so after the ivanovic dechy match i managed to catch the third and last set [yes that's right, he was out in straight sets whoots]. The last set was not jaw-dropping fantastic stuff, it was more rather the djok was out of sorts and not into it. well, wdv, my safin's into round three:D we were kind of gloating over his win cuz we dun really like the djok cuz he's quite.. well, hao lian i suppose. ck cuz he just wants a potential 绊脚石out of his fedex's way while i genuinely support safin so there. yep and so for that i was grinning the whole night and i slept at abt 1230am. i know, that's impossibly early for some of you but considerin i went out fer dinner and have to wake up at 7 in da morning, it's a torture=.= and many tortures to come for the week, oh gaWd.

dinner we went to botak jones at... *drumroll* toa payoh!! that caught you by surprise din it? HAHAHAX. it was fine lar the cajun chix cuz this time portion not so overwhelming i suppose. it was alrite. and this time, the conversation was kinda well, deeper thaN our usual nonsense. we were reminising stuff, like our jc days and stuff. and we started analyzing situations, people etc. and we had loads of our own theories. abt ppl, abt behavoir etc. and as i was sitting there and listening, participating, the feeling came back to me all over again, just like how i felt it in j1. our class are made up of ppl who are: self-centered [which is not entirely a bad thing so dun get defensive *pokes*], emoshiD and think too much 想太多. yepp, as in seriously, it was a 180deg from my sec school life so i was thrown off my feet. and talking to them make me realise that i'm probably speaking to the 2 ppl who fit quite well in my 3 categories. hahax. self centered, emoshid and think too much. not all categories lar. dun misunderstand.

we discussed abt perspectives and fighting for one's rights etc den it just all boils down to different personalities and priorities i suppose. there's not much for argument if the person is like, mr kor-.- a block of inflappable wood-.-[HAHAX, eh, it can be a compliment lor, dun hum tum me!!!] yep, and i'm glad that somehow i've managed to wriggle my way into their tiny world and somehow be a little part of it. it's a special kind of feeling ya noe. well, it's all about sincerity and making an effort i suppose. and the night ended with more jabbs and suans at each other and stuff hahax.

turning back time all the way back to the afternoon, as usual, having nothing to do and lazy to update my own blog, i was blog hopping, reading abt ppl's lives while i havent seen them since forever. and den one thing hit me, i suppose that's why all these years i've faithfully stuck to my fanfics rather then venture into the blogosphere. [ahem, i've EXHAUSTED all my fanfics, read and reread all my favourite ones until i have nothing left, thus reduced to reading blogs HAHAX.. dun take offence.. i'm just liddat i'm sowwie-.-]even in fanfiction world, i don't particularly like reading deathfics angst, gloom and gore but it's alw nice when an author is able to portray the emotions so realistically and the story has a touch of bittersweet ending to it. however, reading someone else's blog is sort of pressurizing. well i suppose now is non-fiction, rather than fiction, the past accounts, feelings of ppl who matter to me.

i dunno, and the fact that you're not exactly close or not exactly not close [wdh am i toking abt?!] makes me think too much [oh no, i'm infected by my classmates!]. yanoe, like how they'll ramble abt frenx who are not there for them and stuff and how dey are unhappy with life and all its conflicts. den deb said: you think too much. yeah i know, i hate thinking too deeply into things and stuff like that but i can't really help it. i am probably reading into it abit too much but i'm feeling guilty. what have i done, or rather not done, that made me feel guilty at all? it probably means that i've not been doing my part, caring enough, that put me in this vulnerable position in the first place. even if those sentiments were not directed at me, i suppose it's always a cause for reflection between my relationship with that certain friend. that's why i was quite moody.

and den, i went to read xxx's [i dunno, some privacy for her i suppose-.- but you all prob know who anyways hahax] blog. and i see all da pics of her and previous posts abt packing to go for xxx [privacy again:D] and stuff. and den it hit me, again [i was hit by a lot of things ytd huh? HAHAX *knock out*]

it was one of the closer frends i made in jc and she was leaving:( we were not like close close close [as in eat lunch tgt, go home tgt, tok on fone fer damn long etc etc] but we were close close [HAHAX] i suppose. she was always a special fren i had yanoe, maybe cuz she never really settled into the class? i dunno, so i felt special that i was considered one of her frens:D i hope. o.O yepp, and it's gonna be a long 3.. or isit 4?! oh gawd years that she'll be away. den i'll miss de occasional: hey let's meet for dinner! or: eh, when we going kbox?! with her.. and that's really upsetting me i suppose. i dunno, i suppose i've always felt that going into uni was another phase of life; we've got to move on and make new frenx so i'll be able to settle reasonably well in SMU even if i was alone [but now got wt lar:D] but i suppose i havent had a really close fren leavin so dats why i'm feeling it now.

We won't say our goodbyes
you know its better that way
We won't break, we won't die
It's just a moment of change

-OneRepublic, All We Are

a passing phase, yeah i suppose it's change. well i just wish her all da best in her new college and maybe when she's back she wouldn't have changed so much until i can't recongize her o.O hahax.

ooh, talking about coming back, ytd i was quite happy:D cuz i talked to my cousin who'd just come back from eng for 2 weeks!! i dunno, maybe i felt apprehensive and a little unsure at first. cuz i dunno, i suppose ppl change rite? but i mustered my ahem, well courage and spoke to her! HAHAX ok i'm such a noobshid-.- and i wanted to have dinner with her ytd and my other cousin who is working in da far east. but that fella was meeting his frenx so we postponed it to today-.- ahh!! it was so long since we've all met tgt [i still go my uncle's house on sats lar but, it's differend:D] so i'm like anticipating man~ we're going chomp chomp which is like serangoon gardens [wdh?!] so he's gonna like fetch us from amk hub. ms england was craving for sambal stingray. guess she got bored of bread and pasta huh? HAHAX. and i'm gonna make him fetch me back home all da way to bkt timah and dey can happily drive back to yck:D i feel evil:D

-melXD

pix

2008-06-24T14:30:00.009+08:00

PIX: SWENSON 20.06

so long nv see him le rite? -->rc

RAWR

me&wt

wt scared of rc?!

mitte mitte~ before and...

after!! da frothing volcano:D

-melXD

on 20th

2008-06-23T09:54:00.004+08:00

HIE

i'm back again:D toldja i went out for dinner wif wt and rc on friday rite? went to wt house meet them there first cuz our ms peh wanted to bath and wash clothes-.- and as usual our wishy-washy mr kor [..ok lar not only him, 我们班男的,没一个好东西! all 婆妈de HAHAHAX] they met like 1hr earlier and still haven decided where to eat-.- zZz so, me and wt decided to just go ichiban boshi :D my fav~

eat le we know rc still hungry so we hopped over to swensons for EARTHQUAKE~! who got烟one leh coolshiT got 8 flavours lemme think: malt choc, choc fudge, coffee, butterscotch, strawberry, lime sherbet, orange sherbet & banana split. 幸福xia~ i got pics but it's in my hp and i can't upload it cuz i'm at *ahem* work *ahem* and this pok com dun have the 'my bluetooth places' so, when i go home one day nothing betta to do den i upload k:D
featuring, me wt rc and earthquake. 敬请期待~

finish le damn cool lar, scooped all the melted icecream into the 'volcano' there den i think have chemical reaction or sthing sia.. the volcano started FROTHING o.O HAHAX den at first little bit only, and when da bubbles burst have whisps of smoke leh COOL O.O den dey two were chidding me fer playing wif food-.- ..not like they din enjoy it:P

den after that, we went to the tpy arcade. you dunno our lau da like to shoot hoops meh? hahax.. played.. 3 rounds i think, the 2nd was the best.. third round tired le x.x ruichao sae he bad at playing so he dou want to play-.- wdv so he was staring at some guy racing..

we shoot hoops le den played daytona.. played wif this two other guys, dunno who lar.. rc was like ramming everybody sia-.- flipped me over in the FIRST ROUND wdh-.- oh wells, i was first overall anyways BWAHAHAX. of cors lar, i pass le LEH HAHAHAX:D

gaah, this basically our whole evening lar, den rushed home to watch tv~
okok, i'll go home and upload da pix lar.. not much but wt want so i'll put it on.. sometime later:D
sign off le, [altho got nthing to do at work must have the decency to at least pretend rite o.O HAHAX] takkare~

-melXD

ellox

2008-06-20T16:41:00.006+08:00

OMG.

i am like, using a blog o.O wdh *qing tian pi li* this ain't happenin this ain't happenin this ain't happenin

ok wdv. since i'm here i might as well hao lian a bit:D i this noobshid also know how to use html bwahahax
ok lar, i kope from somewhere de den wang over the phone help me change change abit:P

ok normally if i start playing someting new on da internet *ahem facebook ahem* probably means i'm darn bored at work. i hope this novelty will last longer than fb did which was abt.. 2-3 months lar.. not bad lar hor o.O

no lar, not cuz i'm bored then i start de.

started cuz aug2008 [waddat?!] coming le, c'mon guys, into another phase of our lives le: UNIVERSITY. gawd that sounds awful *cries* yeah, and hopefully this ahem, portal keeps me in touch wif all my current frenx:

frenx in diff schools [far into the ulu west is where half my class resides :'(]
frenx in diff countries [aus, england, scotland, usa..] &
frenx in diff island [tekong!! HAHAHAX okok, back le, fine-.-]

ok, i'm gettin sick of thinking of things to type le, so i'll just sign off for today:D

oh yeah, btw going out for dinner wif wt and rc later:D tpy again, what's new.

-melXD

disclaimer

2008-06-20T15:14:00.005+08:00

DISCLAIMER: bad english alert.

i dunno, ain't that wad they all do? before a fanfic at least.